I have a coffee in my hand and a vase full of tulips that are starting to open up and bloom, and that is what I want to do be open. As we know I am going through a health journey that feels like will last a lifetime and I am ok with that. Along this journey, I have had some major self-discoveries emotionally and physically. I want to talk about my emotional discovery.
I was talking to a beautiful friend today, and she asked how my health was doing. This is what I told her and what I want to explain to whoever is reading. I said that I feel great! my energy is up, my hair is growing back, i am feeling strong and I do not have to go to the doc for another three months (usually i go once every month). I explained how the scale isn't moving which is frustrating but there are positive changes in my energy and health which is what I care most about. I told her that I still have some mental barriers. Yes, there are some foods that I just do not feel comfortable putting into my body and there are others that I love to fill my body with! some of them do not make sense but that is ok because what I fill my body up with is what makes me happy.
I also explained to her that it has been hard because people will push me to try to eat something that won't put a smile on my face. I have learned that it is more for their satisfaction. What is the difference between a person who is vegetarian and a person who won't have a slice of pizza? Are you going to tell the vegetarian, "you only live once just eat that piece of chicken". I would hope not because they are choosing not to eat that chicken because that is what makes them happy. Why would you want to ruin that person's happiness over a piece of chicken? Same with a slice of pizza.
It is ok if people do not understand what I want to put into my body and what I do not want to put in it because honestly, I do not understand either. But as of right now and where i am in my life, I am going to load myself up with the foods that make me happy. These foods are different for everyone and there is no wrong or right foods!
Do what makes you happy and do not care about what other people try to push onto you. These are my words for now. Until i can put my feelings into a well-explained story, this is all i got. Thank you to my lovely friend who helped me dig out my feelings, put them into words, and create a story.
Have a warm day!
mo xx
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